Feeling so done with the day already! Kind of things emotions do to you, you know..
I sit here, in my room, safe and sound…with all the facilities I will ever need..with a novel in my hand….and still my stomach lurches like anything..I feel that emptiness taking over. Though I have my family with me..but heart is a complex thing I tell you.
Writing about mental health is one thing, and going through that trauma is totally another. While I write here, I feel full of positivity..I feel it is very easy to come out of that state of mind..but deep down I know how after 15 minutes, I will be sulking in some corner of the room and will feel things slipping out of my damn control..the rush of all sorts of emotions surging…..the positivity all gone.
But I guess that is how you are supposed to cope up..not all at once, but slowly. With time, this will all be under control…so all one can do is to let everything be..let it hurt you the most…trust me there will be a saturation point to this too. There will be a point after which..nothing will hurt you more than what you have already felt..so for the time being..just let it bother you a bit. Sit silently and feel. See how deeply you can get hurt..how bad can it actually go..just overthink it out..it really feels a lot better.
May God heal the hearts !!
Desiderata..! 